As For Me, I Will Hope

It takes me by surprise just how surprised I am when I catch a glimpse of God’s love for me. And for his people. I think it is because in those moments I am being struck with two truths; He brings me to a greater understanding of His love, while simultaneously reminding me through this that I will not here know the fullness of his love.

Mind. Blown. Every time.

Conveniently when this happens the waterworks immediately begin. Nothing like that of a leaky faucet, no, more like a rushing waterfall. And it isn’t enough that my tear ducks overflow but the mucus, oh the mucus! And I begin to question- does my heart need to  pour out of every hole in my head?? Many times this ever so conveniently happens at church, so I am constantly nudging my mother for the tenth grasp of Kleenex.

The last few days, I have experienced this. But this time I am at home with my family. Rejoicing in the fact that we have a God who is so ridiculously involved in out lives. Completely in love us- even when there was doubt in our hearts.

There has been a burden of which I am not sure I can speak the nature of ( as I haven’t asked what details might be best to share with the masses 😉 but the gist is we needed a miracle.

We’ve prayed. And prayed. And prayed for so long. We had questioned God many times. We wondered if He was listening I am sure. I think we had gotten to the point of hopelessness in this situation.

But God.

He brought us a miracle.

It reminds me of the story of Abraham and Sarah, and a word God gave me about this beautiful display of His works.

“Do not loosen your grip on hope, you do not know what God is doing underneath the surface. Abraham and Sarah lacked seed and fertile ground, but God was faithful and fulfilled His promise. He is faithful.”

So I am left in tears and mucus, and all of the other lovely inward and outward expressions of realizing just how faithful God is. And how much He loves his people. He loves us. Or at least I am realizing to the extent I currently can. I am sure I will see it all so much more clear in times to come.

So if you are in the middle of a struggle. If you are believing God for miracles. If you are losing grip of hope that you will ever see fruit, or healing, or the light at the end of the long, dark, empty tunnel- DON’T. Listen for His voice, maybe He is telling you to take a different path. But remember His truths; He has overcome the world, He loves you deeply, and He is Faithful.

As for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more. My mouth will tell of your righteous deeds, of your saving acts all day long— though I know not how to relate them all… Your righteousness, God, reaches to the heavens, you who have done great things. Who is like you, God? Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up.

Psalm 71: 14-15&19-20

Until the Thursday after next,

Rachel Maurine

**Look for my dear, beautiful friend Alexandra’s post next Thursday! She will be joining us starting next week and I am so so excited to share Thursdays with her and see what God pours out from her heart!


4 thoughts on “As For Me, I Will Hope

  1. Oh Rachel. God put this in my ” inbox” today. Literally JUST got home from the doctor with my son … yet another specialist … and we too, need a miracle. I feel like this was written just for me. Thank you 🙂

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