My husband and I are at the point in our lives where we need to begin making some decisions about the future. He’s looking forward to early retirement. Soon. He’s more than ready, after working for 40 years with the same company. I, on the other hand, am not. Ready for retirement, that is. At least I don’t think so. Now, I’m not able to work full-time, but I love the people I work with, and my job is really fulfilling. I feel like I am serving God in a way that pleases Him and helps others. I am so blessed!
But yet, I am so torn! What do I do about this decision to possibly move? I really have no idea. Am I afraid of change? Uh, yeah! Aren’t you? I want to know every detail of what this potential change might entail. Will I be…happy? Satisfied? Fulfilled? Stress-free? (Haha) Able to make friends? Find doctors? (That’s a biggie, lately.) A church home? Most importantly, will this move be in line with what God has planned for my life?
Now, I’ve been praying about this important decision. For quite some time. And I have no idea. No. Idea. Whatsoever. I’ve put “fleeces” out there for God. “If You would just have someone drive up to our house and offer to buy it, I’ll know that you want us to move.” (Not kidding.) I’ve been begging God to give me a glimmer of…something. Anything. I got nothing. Except a bunch of possibilities and no clear direction. Ugh.
Last Saturday night, Craig and I attended a church service in Lincoln with our daughter. During that time of worship, I think I heard God’s still, small voice telling me to…yeah, you guessed it. Wait! What? Did He forget that I’m not very good at waiting? Does God know how anxious my husband is to make a decision as to where we will be going? Um, no, He didn’t forget, and yes, He knows.
So, there you have it. I’m waiting. Trusting that my Father will reveal His perfect plan at the perfect time. Again. And reminding myself as I have so many others of God’s promise in Jeremiah: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11)
Father, thank you for the perfect plans You have for my life, and for all of those who trust in You. Please, Lord, help us to be patient and trusting, and to hear clearly what those plans are. Thank you that we are Your sheep, and that we get to follow You wherever You lead us, knowing You are with us always. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
God bless you as you seek the Shepherd this week!